10 Years of Being Single

It’s already a decade, since last time I had a relationship. I found it pretty weird, because I always see myself as a person who really likes romantic things, romance stories, romance movies, but I ended up 10 years on being single. For people that didnt know me well must be reacting like, “Ah masa sih, Dhan orang kaya lo single selama 10 tahun?”. But seriously, its already a decade since last time I had a relationship and surprisingly, it really felt just like yesterday.

I remember, when I broke up with my ex 10 years ago. I kinda like made a commitment for myself, “I have to be ready in all aspects to finally brave enough to find a partner again”. From mentality, resources, till economically. Looking back right now, even I see myself back then really pushed me that hard. I really had a harsh mindset to live despite my romantic needs going opposite haha But I didn’t regret on my decision.

Back when I was in college, I literally got no time to do other things beside my college activities. I was very lucky to be choosen to become kinda like coordinator of my department and gratefully everything went well. If a had a girlfriend at that time, I might be cant be present for my girlfriend and everything would turns out bad.

My college years were fantastic, and I graduated happily in October 2017. Soon as I graduated, I start fastly to looking for a job. And my first official job need me to work in Bandung, March 2018. So many things happened to my life in span my life at Bandung until today. But on the other hands, I was not seeking, effortly, a partner at that time. And then rumours start to circling me. From my inability to move on till I was not felt loneliness because I had many friends to talk to.

Honestly, in these past 10 years, I trying to find a partner. But every attempt just didn’t end well. And for loneliness issue, oh… I dealt with it in harsh way that I decided too haha

Luckily, when my friends didn’t around. I can funnel my time to doing many things that I liked, such as playing Dota 2, reading manga, watching movies, and write my feelings down into blog or short story.

This 10 years of being single also teach me how to depend on myself far more better. It helps me on being happy with everything that I do. I become more and more mature and independent. And I realized, that the happiness come from myself. That’s the positive things haha the negative things for being independent I guess my sense on seeking for help to anyone is being compressed. I need to work on it I guess haha

Sometimes, I wonder, what my life would have been if I had a relationship in these past 10 years. But if someone asked, did I regret on not being able to have a relationship in these past 10 years?

Well, the answer is no.

I am very happy with what I become today.

And I guess, right now I am ready to be in relationship again.

Ahaha that it for today.

Lets see what the future holds.